First Post

This is my first time blogging. My life has been so hectic lately that I thought I would write it out, help me figure out what is going on through writing. Brief explanation: I am a senior in college about to finish up and I am scared to death of entering the real world, mostly because I have no idea what I am going to do with my life after I graduate. I lost my best friend of three years this past summer because I realized she was a horrible selfish person who I didn't want in my life. Last year I became extremely depressed after having an abortion. I completely lost myself and my identity. I let my best friend walk all over me. I stayed with my boyfriend because I was afraid to be alone. And I ate all my feelings and gained over 20 lbs. I decided to change this summer and fix the problems in my life. This called for an intense self reflection of my life. I have turned around and have been extremely happy for over 2 months. I am off my medication and I am truly happy. Now, my ex-boyfriend is trying to get back with me and I am falling again. My ex-best friend just sent me an email wanting to be friends again. And worst of all everyone in my life wants to know what I plan to do after I graduate and my answer doesn't please them.