So... i feel like my life is falling apart. I feel like the past four years all my friends have been tailoring themselves to enter the career world and what was I doing....nothing. First off, can someone please tell me when the hell my friends where doing all this stuff to build their resume? I don't remember anyone doing anything but drinking with me. So I have no experience at anything. I have no previous jobs. I have nothing. And now I am suppose to find someone to hire me while the economy is in a huge depression? Are you kidding me!!! I dont know what to do. I feel like such an idiot. Everyone I know has their life planned and I am about to graduate and don't even know what I will be doing tomorrow. How can everyone have everything planned out and ready. Will someone please tell me how to even start going about getting a job.... actually can someone please just walk up to me and tell me I should be famous and then hire me and make me an international pop star. thanks that would be so great. xoxo

First Post

This is my first time blogging. My life has been so hectic lately that I thought I would write it out, help me figure out what is going on through writing. Brief explanation: I am a senior in college about to finish up and I am scared to death of entering the real world, mostly because I have no idea what I am going to do with my life after I graduate. I lost my best friend of three years this past summer because I realized she was a horrible selfish person who I didn't want in my life. Last year I became extremely depressed after having an abortion. I completely lost myself and my identity. I let my best friend walk all over me. I stayed with my boyfriend because I was afraid to be alone. And I ate all my feelings and gained over 20 lbs. I decided to change this summer and fix the problems in my life. This called for an intense self reflection of my life. I have turned around and have been extremely happy for over 2 months. I am off my medication and I am truly happy. Now, my ex-boyfriend is trying to get back with me and I am falling again. My ex-best friend just sent me an email wanting to be friends again. And worst of all everyone in my life wants to know what I plan to do after I graduate and my answer doesn't please them.